I have no words.

Anguish resonates and aligns 

my naked scrambled thoughts.

The clamor of your voice 

will always overpower my own. 

I have no words. 

You stole them.  

I know what a frown feels like-

Quivering, curling lips.
Tears silently crashing
like waves on a shore.
I know what a frown feels like.
A sadness so deep I feel it in my bones.

Fragility

Awareness is

Knowing that

 you are fragile,

And realizing that

 you have the potential to break.

All Because I Met You-

I've spent countless hours
<<<suspended into days
-suspended into the infinite.

<I cannot retract this.>

I've given fragments of myself
to the undeserving.
Left with nothing to call my own.
I never questioned it.


My knotted past
is (I am) a tangled mess.
I am an enigmatic being.
 Full of puzzle pieces
that have been crammed
where they don't belong.
The unfitting ; never fitting.

I've been carefully
and diligently
pulling apart:
 piece by piece.

Tattered, torn-
I can see
 each and every  layer
in-between.
So I've begun
to erase memory
of this mismatched visual.

Letting go of fear.

All because I met you.

Pins and Needles-

There are hidden messages  

etched under my skin.

Pins and needles 

exposing nerve endings.

Evaporating feeling: externalizing.

Rising  into my pores.

This fear is only as real

as the thoughts I think.

Everything I have ever let go of

have the scars to prove it.

Look Elsewhere-

Sometimes we lose sight of ourselves 

when we are not paying attention. 

Looking for yourself 

in the bounds of someone else

will only get you lost.

Let this be a lesson,

not a resentment.

What does wanting "more" even mean?

Some days; most days

 I legitimately feel I am bearing the weight of the entire fucking world. 

 Life, infectiously digging.

 Talons etched inside my skin.

 Familiarized. 

I know this level of intimacy all too well. 

No need for explanation.

I become one;I am one. 

 Battling comfort. 

 All the while facing discomfort. 

 Within these moments I confront everything. 

 Face to face.

I am mirroring time within itself. 

I challenge the mental process. 

Can't you see that I am finally awake?

 Such instances, so instantaneously.

 What has brought me here in the first place? 

 First and foremost- 

Take care of you.

 Never forgetting, Nor allowing anything other. 

 Sabotage the thoughts, 

Do not sabotage the self. 

 ((Do you hear me? Do you hear?))

 - It's time you cared enough to listen. 

It's time you wanted something more.